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Do I stay or do I go?

People always ask me, “Why are you moving to Calgary?” And honestly, sometimes I ask myself that exact question. Why should I go? Why can’t I just stay?

I mean, it would be easier if I just stayed in my little bubble. If I just do what I always do. But, just because it’s easier doesn’t mean I will be happier.

And the truth is simple. My life in Winnipeg has always been one where I usually got what I wanted. Sure, I’ve worked hard to accomplish all my goals and managed to check off all the tasks on my lists (and those who know me, know I make many lists).  But it’s come to a point where I’m no longer growing as a person. I’m not learning and I’m not being challenged.

If I go, I’ll be able to find a job where I’ll be making something out of my degree. If I go, I’ll learn to live for myself and not depend on the help of my parents. If I go, I might save thousands. If I go, I might actually be able to take the engineering program that Winnipeg doesn’t offer.

If I go, at least I could have said I tried.

And maybe it’s going to be a long shot. Maybe I’ll be knocked down a couple times before I can get up again. But that doesn’t mean I should let my fears scare me from what could be a heck of a ride.

And that’s the beauty of home. No matter where life takes you, you can always come back.

And you don’t know where to start.

May. June. July. Three months. Three short months to do everything that I need to do. And believe me, there’s a lot. I make list after list of things I need to finish, or rather, things I need to start. And, I cannot fathom how in the world I’m going to accomplish it.

I think I know why it’s taking me so long to get started. Because really, once I’m finished everything I need to finish - it finalizes it. The big move. 

And how in the world can you begin to say goodbye to the ones you love the most? 

Focus.. Focus!

So my last exam ever at the UofW is in approximately 4 hours and I can’t seem to concentrate on studying! I seem to be doing anything else to preoccupy myself rather than reading my notes. Apparently, blogging is more important. **Sigh

Anywhooo.. Wish me luck!

Okay, this is it.

So, I open my email and my heart skips a beat. Subject: Dual Degree Application. I wait a moment before I open it. What if I missed something in the application? What if I’m not good enough? What if…? 

It’s amazing how one sentence can change your entire future.

“Congratulations on your admission to the Institute of Technology/University of Minnesota as a Dual Degree Student majoring in Biomedical Engineering.”

Is this for real? The official letter is supposed to come in the following weeks. AHHH! I always told myself that until I’m accepted it won’t really sink in ‘cause theres a chance I won’t be leaving. 

But I am.

And its in about 5 months. O M G. I have so much to do. So much to think about. So much loose ends to tie up. Where do I start?

For now, I’m just going to absorb all of this new information. And for once, just be happy. Dream big, folks.